Well, I am 55 today and so the Lord and I are giving you all a birthday gift.
Father God, I praise you and worship you and love you. My heart breaks because of the distance between us…that there is not the intimate feeling of love flowing like a river between us. Lord God Almighty, I want to swim in the river of that love but know that I am swimming in it. I want to feel that love, to know that your love is wrapping its arms around me and holding me and keeping me. Lord, I want to know that love in the very depths of my soul so that it is revived and saved and so totally in tune with you that all of me and you are one. Lord God Almighty, give to me that revelation of your love and your presence so that it is not just hopeful guesswork on my part that I am in your favour and am so totally loved by you.
The other morning at physio, I put on my IPOD and listened to praise and my spirit soared to…well, not the heavens I was expecting but to a dry wilderness that resembled very much a desert place. I looked around and wondered why I was there when all of a sudden my spirit exploded (so to speak) into action. I stomped each foot into the sandy earth, raised my head and shouted to the Lord. I could see the gates of heaven, the gardens, the palaces, the hallway to the Throne Room, the Throne Room, the Lord sitting on the Throne….
I started to yell to Him and speak in a way I have never spoken before. And every word I said had life and it came to life in that it was made manifest. It was the oddest thing. My heart was so filled with excitement and freedom that I thought I would never come back to this realm. And this is what I said.
Father! Father! Lord God Almighty. I am of the earth. I plant my feet in the earth for I am made of dust. This is where you have made me…and I am bound to the earth. Come down to me. Come down to me! I cannot come to you and my heart is breaking. I want your rivers of life to flow over me, to rush over me, to completely cover me and overflow me until I am swept away in the current…free and full of abandon, not caring about anything or even where I am going for I am in the river of your life…and that is all that matters. Break away my roots that have me chained to this earth…that remind me constantly that I am but a creature made of the dust that will return to the dust. Lord, I call out to you…come to me. Step down off your throne and come to me! For I cannot come to you. I have tried, but the roots of my creation have me bound to the earth and I cannot come.
Father! Father! Send your angels to pull at the roots and free me from this prison! You never intended for the earthly realm to be my prison. You intended me to be a part of your creation just like everyone and every thing else…not to be outside of it.
I want to see your face. Jesus, I want to see your face. I want to feel your hand touch my face. I want to know the love first hand and personal. I want to feel your love. Come to me! Come to me! Get off your throne and come to me! I need you! But what is more important is that I want you!
And this is what the Lord said to me.
Tell my people that they are created from the earth, yes, but where was the earth created from. I AM LIFE! I AM EXISTENCE! Absolutely EVERYTHING is created out of me and in me. I WAS HERE FIRST! Within me, I created the third heavens. I pulled the third heavens (my heavens – the spiritual realm) out of ME, my thoughts, my hopes, my desires, and put it into place IN ME! I prepared the second heavens (where the demons live – hell) because I knew it would be needed. I pulled the second heavens out of ME, my knowledge, my knowing what would happen, my disappointment, and put it into place IN ME! I created the first heavens (your heavens – the natural realm) out of ME, my longings, my need, my love, and put it into place IN ME!
For there is nothing that exists that is outside of ME. I am here first and I am everything. Everything else is within ME. There is no separation. There is no difference. If I had not created you in ME you would not be. So you are spiritual and natural for natural is just a manifestation of spiritual and spiritual is just a manifestation of my thoughts, my hopes, my desires, my love….
So those who cannot see me or hear me or feel me…it is just a lie from the enemy that they have bought. You are part of me and I am part of you…my spirit gave you your first breath in the Garden. My spirit lives within you and makes you alive. If you are alive, you can see life. It is not just for the few and chosen, for you are all chosen and you should all see, hear, feel, touch, taste and smell the goodness of my love for you.
Repent from believing the lies! Repent from believing that I would create you and stay distant from who my heart longs to be with! Can you not see my love for you? Can you not believe my love for you? Repent until all instances of belief of the lies has been broken in your life, for those are the roots that have bound you to the earth. Those are the roots that have bound you to the realm that Lucifer claims he is prince over. I long to look into your eyes and see you looking back at me with as much love as I have for you…so I speak freedom over you. My word will not return to me void. I speak freedom and truth. I declare now, by MY name and by MY honor, that you (all of you) will see MY face and look into MY eyes and see MY love; ALL of you will know MY love and feel MY love for I am more than the Lord your God who has created you, I AM the one who loves you and purchased you with BLOOD. I have bought you back from the enemy who stole you away from ME at a great price because I have loved you from before you were born and before you were even created. I didn't have to purchase you, but I did and I would do it all over again if I had to – you are that important to me. I have made you and I have bought you. How can you think I do not love you and long even more to see you and see that glimmer of recognition in your eyes and feel that response of knowing I love you from your heart. You think it is hard for you? I am holding someone close to me who cannot see, hear, feel, smell or taste – it is hard for me too. But I still hold you in my arms and in my heart because I know someday you will respond and we will share our love together.
Go and tell my people this prayer and tell them that I long for them just as much as they long for me, and wherever two are in agreement, it shall be done. That is a principle of life. And it shall be done. We will be together BEFORE death takes you.
That is the vision. That is my heart for everyone…that the lies be ripped away and that the truth of the natural realm is only placed within (that is WITHIN) the spiritual realm and so both are real here now be revealed and lived by God's people.
This is my birthday wish for everyone and my gift to you. I know in the months to come I will be concentrating on breaking down those barriers that are holding so many of you from realizing your heart's desire. That is the commission the Lord is giving me to do at this time.
Father God, I pray for everyone who receives this newsletter. Lord, I break the words spoken over them and to them. Father, I break the power of those words over their life and the assignment of those words in their life. Father, I rip the veil that those words have placed before them and I ask the Holy Spirit to rise up and heal their spiritual eyes, ears, tongue, nose and skin…give them now the senses of the new body they will receive. Bring to them now the healing and reality of spiritual living. Let revelation of truth flood down on them like a mighty waterfall of life and hope. Rise up within their hearts like a fountain of spring water, reviving, refreshing and bring to life their spirits and their beings. Heal your people Lord. Fulfill your word and your desire in them and for them. Let your word return to you fulfilled and complete. Come down to your people and raise us up from the death that has enveloped us all from birth. In Jesus' name, amen.
God bless you all
Jessica
